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aMuse

No rules, no plans, just words.

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Giggly, giddy
Lost and found
Tangled up
But upside down

Nervously eager
Smiling yet scared
Silly laughter
With dark souls bared

Hopeful anxiety
Pounding herat
Distractions waning
Waiting to start

Fearful ideas
Splintered mind
Unsure longing
Til words help bind

Silent sitting
Speaking escape
Knowing nothing
Unsure fate

Prayerful moments
Forcing hope
Stepping backwards
Helping cope

Giggly, giddy
Lost and found
Tangled up
Yet upside down

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Give It Up

Teach me, Lord
To let it be
When life’s not fine
And I’m not me

Take it, Jesus
Push it far
From heavy load
To measly scar

Help me, Father
Unclench my hands
To release the lies
And life’s demands

I cannot do it
With strength alone
Help me, Spirit
With grace atone

I’m scared to open
Can’t give it up
So rip it from me
‘Til I erupt

But hold me, Father
When I cannot see
The joys ahead
Your plans for me

For I will question
And hold on tight
For fear of failing
Not taking flight

So help me, Jesus
Calm my nerves
Remind me again
This life is yours

The Show

img_4537.jpgBehind the words I say every day
Lies my whole story, hidden away

Shiny at first, bright and true
I gave it away to all that I knew

But with each tell something was lost
Sharing those things came at a cost

Now cracked, broken, passed around
I keep my past hidden, closed and bound

Scared that the listener wont care for my treasure
Or that they’ll take parts when they leave at their leisure

Once a big secret, tales one of a kind
My story is now scattered for others to find

So forgive me the wait as I ticket the show
Until I can trust that you’re the one who should know

Stars

Daylight creeping
Drifting far
Heavenly warmth
Replaced by stars

As it streaks
The fading sky
I begin to wonder
I ask God why

Why still here?
Why still now?
Will it change?
And if so how?

I don’t hate it
Not by a stretch
But O how I long
My love to fetch

To feel the weight
Of love drenched hugs
To sit in silence
Holding coffee mugs

How do I lead
This double life
When all it does
Is let hurt run rife

Wanting the road
But craving a home
Asking for settled
Begging to roam

I’m lost in a game
Where I never get picked
Endlessly tag
Never quite “it”

So I sit silent
Happy but lost
Wanting to trust
But God, at what cost?

Staying is wrong
Miss what I crave
Going is too
Says the fear that enslaves

Ripped top to bottom
Fear consuming my whole
Edging out tears
That I cannot control

Save me I plead
Show me the way
Help me to know
This is part of your play

I stretch and listen
For a word or a sign
And suddenly think
Even stars are all thine

Stars that now shine
Died long ago
Releasing their hope
To the people below

That in this life
For those who believe
God works for the good
To help not deceive

More

IMG_0857.jpgGuide me Father
Through thick and thin
Glancing Upwards
Pressing in

I want to want it
All on my own
But each time it presses
It seems for men alone

Unsure if its me
Or desire to impress
That’s asking for more
To fix this hot mess

I like that i’m asking
No matter why
But do YOU see that
And count it a try?

I want to be better
To read what you wrote
To see the story
Engage with each note

But I can’t seem to push
Without others i’m lost
Finding your word
But kept with a cost

It’s good to have others
Talk of your love
But I want it alone
That joy from above

Help me to find it
Push me for time
For words unspoken
And wisdom to climb

Grow me so greatly
Make me more than I am
Prepare me for use
In this life you’ve got planned

In your name Jesus
Amen
So Be it.

Cries

Oh God my heart
It cries your name
Different words
But story same

Help me Jesus
Alone am I
Sitting, waiting
Future nigh

Where’s the man
Dreamt so long
The one who pushes
Who hears my song

Help me trust you
Teach me faith
When longing haunts
And love’s a wraith

I want to sit
In joy unbound
Knowing you are all
And lost is found

But here I am
Once again
Begging movement
With words so thin

Desiring you
Desiring trust
Walking away
Stuck in lust

Save me Jesus
Save me God
Save me spirit
My hopeful prod

I want to feel you
Know you’re there
But here I sit
With empty prayer

God I know you
Good and just
Loving, kind
In that I’ll trust

Forgive me asking
Repeating pleas
When I know you answer
These calls on knees

Thank you for people
Glimpses of you
Joyful and loving
Caring and true

Draw me to know you
That I trust you more
Endless I crave it
May YOU I adore

Overhead Thoughts

Flying oh so high above
Cities though unknown, I love

Wondering what the future holds
Watching eager as it unfolds

one quick moment could change it all
Exhilarated I try and let life fall

Moving onward trusting God
In work, in love, a silent nod

It never seems to go to plan
Yet over and over, adventure grand

And so I stare at lights below
People waiting, hoping so

For dreams so big and love so wide
That all their life can fit inside

A silent scream, the human heart
For something more, set apart

How I wish to help each one
Silent stories, plans undone

But again I look and overwhelmed
Stand back one second from my helm

For I’m not called to fix the world
But help where im at with heart unfurled

And with that I see a new scene
same unknown cities, but grass not as green

And there it is, standing unmasked
The answer to the deep seated question I’ve asked

For me at least, I must learn to stay
To listen to people and love where I may

Tomorrow could change that and send me afar
But for now I smile as I feel that “stay where you are”IMG_3201.jpg

Honesty

Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing to do
For when you say what’s on your mind
It often scares you through and through

And is it good to say whats true
If others find it sad?
Or does it only count
When the words make someone glad?

Growing up I was told
I must always tell the truth
But saying what you think always
Can sometimes be uncouth

So do I tell you “that’s not your color”
When you ask what’s on my mind?
Or should I say, “I love it!”
And let you think it looks just fine?

The line between honesty and bring rude
Is starting to wear thin
I look at one and see the other
Unsure where each begin

So forgive me all my words
Me ceaseless “honest” chatter
I get so anxious to do whats right
I sound like a mad hatter

Giving too much honesty
That might cause a little pain
Then swooping in to take it back
It’s all an endless game

I mean well, I promise
It’s just a learning curve
And one of these days I get it
Until then…forgive my “nerve”

Rain Thoughts

I wake up with bouts of sorrow
Knowing more may come tomorrow

But as I push through each hour
I don’t let my smile sour

For here I am with you
One friend, or maybe two

People who keep me smiling
Even when my fears are piling

So let me sit and be
Not let my anger hold to me

But live right where I am
In the palm of God’s right hand

A poorly chosen child
Who wanders in the wild

But safe in His loving arms
I see the world’s many charms

Rain perhaps, but even still
I rest within my Father’s willdownload.jpg

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