Dreams of future promise
Bounce from neuron to neuron
Enthusiasm rings from every fiber of my being
Then, a new reign comes
Of doubt and “what if”s

I love the idea of —
Then I could —-
And I’d be able to —
I’ve always wanted to —
And I’d be able to do all that at once!

Always a but.
Always something holding back
Hesitation in excitement

What if I don’t meet someone
What if I don’t get the job I want
What if no one hires me
What if I end up having to stay

Fear in everything
Stealing my hope with every new thought
What if
What if
What if

What if this time I stop second guessing?
What if?