Anger coursing through my veins
Pushing any happy thought away
They hate you
You don’t fit in
They’ll stare
You’re not good enough
You don’t belong here
Tearing at my heart
Ushering tears unbidden from my eyes
Shut up.
Just shut up
The whisper lingers
No one to hear it but me
Praying that I listen to myself
These are lies
All lies
You are loved
You are wanted
Today is good
But each sentence is rejected immediately
Pushed away by more lies
I can’t escape it
And so I sit at home
Thinking that I must add this
To the list of ruined occasions